sometimes...

Everybody has been through some sort of pain, so I don't want to say my pain is any worse than other peoples.  For the people that know me and understand me they can see my emotions from looking at my face.  I had someone tell me recently that I am not really a happy person that it's all an act and that I am really hurting deep inside.  I find that to be partly true but the thing is my smile is genuine it's not an act.  Even though I may have hurt deep inside I am a cheerful person.  Sure I am down at times as is everyone.  I do have hurt in my past, some of it I need to work on getting over.  If you dwell on the past you will make yourself miserable.  You must grasp it, learn from it, and move on.  I have also learned that you have to surround yourself with positive people, if you are around the negative ones they will bring you down into their misery with them.  Sometimes you really do need to shut the doors on people who aren't bringing anything positive into your life.  Not that you should get rid of all your friends but choose them wisely and don't keep the ones close who are miserable.  They cannot stand seeing you happy and will try their best to make sure you feel like they do.  

In memory of my Baby...

Here is my Baby's urn, it looks like her.  Okay, sorry of it's a little creepy.

Update on my birds...

I haven't been on here in a while.  A few things have been going on in my life.  My grandma passed away on Feb 22, 2013. Then my dog Baby died March 1st, the days short of 16 years.  They both will be truly missed because they were both important in my life.
My baby birds are getting bigger. The lovebirds are ready for their new homes, the green cheeks still need a little more time. I may keep them both anyway. One of them has  an under bite that may have been caused by the parents. So it may need some extra TLC.

Crocheted creations...

Here are a few of the things I've been doing this winter besides playing with birds.

Birdie babies...

Two weeks old.

another day

I'm off of work today because of presidents day.  I guess that leaves me a little more time to myself or myself and my pets.  I haven't been too productive the last couple of days.  I have got a little bit of cleaning done but there is always so much more to do.  There are always chores looming over like changing the bird cages or I should be working out or something.  Also I have many crocheting projects started that need some attention and to be finished.  These past few months I have been making scarves for my friends.  So I have made over a dozen scarves lately but lost a little bit of momentum.  I'll post some pictures soon.

A Little About Me & My Birds

I know it has a little about me in my description but I know that doesn't really tell you much.  Well my name is Elizabeth I am 31 years old.  I have lived in Chicago all my life but I know that I really don't belong here.  I am waiting for the day that I have enough money to get up and leave this place.  Thanks to an ex boyfriend I still have a couple more years to go.  The thing is sometimes I get down and/or frustrated but I know that I will be okay.  I am currently employed at a bank but I don't necessarily see that as my dream job in the future.  I would love to do something that I really enjoy, like something that has to do with plants, crafts, nature, or my pets or all of the above somehow.  Though I haven't figured out what that could be yet...  I love children but don't have any of my own yet (when I find the right man hopefully I will) I guess I have pets in the place but it still doesn't completely fill that void.
I currently have two sun conures, there is Solie and Tango.  They are a male and female but unfortunately Solie though she has other birds in the room and associates with them still refuses to be friends with him, she tolerates him to a point but still tries to bite if he comes too close.  At this point they still live in separate cages.  I got Solie in 2005 when she was first weened by a breeder, though he was much more than that, he was one of the nicest people I have met and could talk to him for hours.  I guess he doesn't breed suns anymore because his health is starting to be a burden and he doesn't have the time or energy for as many birds.  I started out with one lovebird in 2003 a couple of months later got a second one, a year later got two more and now have 14 birds plus the 5 chicks.  The weird thing is that I got lucky with pairs the lovebirds that I got were for pets I had no idea what sex they were and it ended up that I have two pairs that were able to reproduce.  I never actually expected to have babies, I always thought it would be nice to have a few but not my mission.  My first pair has produced many babies I still have 3 of them.  I also have 3 from the second pair as well.  That pretty much explains having 10 lovebirds.  The 3 baby lovebirds that I have at this point are actually grandchildren of the first birds.  Unfortunately I came to the realization the other day that I will not have any more babies from my first lovies.  She laid eggs the last two years that weren't fertile.  I wasn't even trying to breed her but I felt bad for her sitting at the bottom of the cage at that certain time of year and added a box.  She laid eggs in the beginning of Jan 2013 and they didn't hatch so this is the last time   I will give her the nest box.  Laying and sitting on eggs takes a lot of energy out of a bird and I would love to have her many more years.  She is about nine now and they can live between 10-20 years.  As for my other pair they probably won't have anymore either she hasn't even seemed to have the urge to lay eggs which I am glad for so I just let her be.  Now on the other hand my green cheek conure Cricket I have had since 2005 as well and I never knew what sex she was either until the beginning of January when she laid her first egg.  I got her a friend, Stormy a Turquoise Green Cheek who was a DNA sexed male almost two years ago and after about a year let them live in the same cage.  Now they have their first two babies, which  I am planning on keeping one or both of them, I haven't decided yet.  they are about a week and a half old now and seem to be doing well.  =)
I also have other pets but I will tell about them later.  I think I have babbled on enough for today, at least enough to explain the crazy bird lady status. lol.

Tango

Just saying hi...

Hanging.

Today I'm sitting around hanging out with my sun conures Solie and Tango. :)

Babies...

So my first green cheek baby hatched feb 1st, unfortunately it died the same day. Probably because they were first time parents. Two more babies did hatch though around the 6th and seem to be doing well. Also I have three baby lovebirds.

Hmmm...

I wonder of anyone is a creepy blog stalker. ;)

Birds update...

Today I took a look at and in my birdies boxes. My green cheek now has four eggs. One of my love birds so far has two, though she just started laying a couple of days ago. My other lovebird has 9 eggs, the most that I had seen in the past was 8. The outcome can be very different depending on how many hatch and how many survive. I've had pretty good luck with lovebird chicks but once in a while things do happen at an early age besides usually there are a couple of eggs that don't hatch. Time will tell.

Thoughts...

Sometimes I still find myself loving him and fear that I can and will never love that way again. Then I start to look back at all the hurt he's caused me. That's when I start to come to my senses and remember that I'm better off.

Lots of Birds...

     Recently my green cheek conure Cricket, decided to lay eggs.  I have had her since August 2005 and didn't even know for sure that she was a she until then.  She never though it was necessary to lay eggs before.  I guess it's because she befriended my turquoise green cheek Stormy.  He is a DNA sexed male who is almost 2 years old.  They lived apart for a while but in the last months formed a bond and were allowed to live in the same cage.  I still didn't notice any sort of mating behavior but right around Christmas there was a broken egg on the cage floor.  I added a nest box that she didn't pay any attention to and the next night there was another egg, again on the cage floor.  Cricket showed no interest to the egg and I figured that if it was still ignored when I got home from work I would give it to one of my lovebirds to sit on she is laying eggs now as well. I was thinking she may foster it since their beaks are about the same size.  Unfortunately when I got home from work, the second egg was broken.  That night or the next Cricket and Stormy started sleeping in the nest box and about two days later Jan 1st she laid another egg.  Since she has laidd a fourth and has been in the box since.  I hope that she comes out sometimes to feed and poop.  Though I have not seen her out of the box, I believe she has because the amount of droppings at the bottom of the cage etc.  I keep checking her but I don't want to disturb her too much. 
     Also two of my lovies are sitting on eggs.  So many birds.  :) I wasn't even trying to increase my number of birds but I feel bad when they start sitting on the bottom of the cage.