sometimes...

Everybody has been through some sort of pain, so I don't want to say my pain is any worse than other peoples.  For the people that know me and understand me they can see my emotions from looking at my face.  I had someone tell me recently that I am not really a happy person that it's all an act and that I am really hurting deep inside.  I find that to be partly true but the thing is my smile is genuine it's not an act.  Even though I may have hurt deep inside I am a cheerful person.  Sure I am down at times as is everyone.  I do have hurt in my past, some of it I need to work on getting over.  If you dwell on the past you will make yourself miserable.  You must grasp it, learn from it, and move on.  I have also learned that you have to surround yourself with positive people, if you are around the negative ones they will bring you down into their misery with them.  Sometimes you really do need to shut the doors on people who aren't bringing anything positive into your life.  Not that you should get rid of all your friends but choose them wisely and don't keep the ones close who are miserable.  They cannot stand seeing you happy and will try their best to make sure you feel like they do.